The future.....

My husband and I are both applying to doctorate school at the University of Oregon for next fall 2010. :big breath: Different departments grant you but it would be so cool if we both get in and get to go together. But this would also mean that we would be moving from the Midwest to the Pacific Northwest...:big eyes:

40!!

I will be 40 tomorrow!!!

Yup, I am alright.

The worst Job in the World

is substitute teaching. I was a sub from March till the end of April and I have to say of the handful of jobs I have had it was the worse. I have never been in a position in which I was given the least amount of respect, and I am not necessarily talking about the students.
Fellow teachers and principles are the major culprits.
Just because you have never met me, just because I will be gone at the end of the day, just because I am not a "teacher", does not, and I repeat, does not, give you the right to treat me like an invader, or a fool because I do not know your schools procedures. It does not give you the right to throw me in a classroom and then get angry when I have trouble with students or the right to ignore me when I ask for help or information.
I am there to help you, I am the one who takes your place when you are sick or need a day off. I deserve your respect for the fact that I do not know from day to day whether I will be working or not. I am the one woke up at 5am and asked to work, to work for you. And the principles...you know what...each school is different, I do not know your procedures and when children are misbehaving. Why am I not allowed to send them to the principle when I am told of no other way to disciple the children and am having trouble with several of them misbehaving? I was told by one principle that she was too busy and that I needed to just deal with the kids myself even though I have no authority to give detentions or give out "yellow" slips.

As for the students...It shames me to see so many kids being raised in such a way that they lack basic respect for an adult, whether that adult knows how their classroom works or not. I have been ridiculed and completely ignored while being a sub by students of all ages but this disrepect is most common among the older children.
The little kids, 1st grade and younger, are fantastic. They are happy and loving and just a plain joy but its sad to see that change as they become older and for some, start to emulate their parents, who are also disrepectful.

What happened to respect? What happened to basic courtesy? What happened to just plain being nice? Or is this a condition that is only here where I live?
I don't know but its sad to see there kids and then their teachers act like this because I am a sub and not a regular member of their school.

Anyways, I won't be a substitute this year. I will be looking for another job while I wait to hear if I made the PhD program I applied for.

And the results are in

It has now been a full year that I have been unemployeed, not counting working as a sub. I graduated last May with my Master of Art degree in history. Whoopie.

I havent been able to find ANYTHING..nada..unemployment here is 9.5 %, there are no big businesses in the area except car manufacturers...oh yes they are declaring backruptcy.
And no one is hiring unless you have lots of experience or know someones brothers cousins girlfriend.

I am trying not to get down about it. Positive thinking. But its hard. My oldest son starts college in the fall and we are trying to figure out how to get him a car so that he doesnt have to take the metrolink since there have been a handful of hold ups at the stations near us. Thank goodness he wanted to start with the local community college.


Now for something completely different:

I am drawing again. yay!
I have also started a goregous garden in the backyard with my mothers help. I am sooo happy with it.
I have also cut all my hair off. I look just like I stepped out of the early 1900's...its pretty cool though the curls are crazy.
My trip to visit my sister sucked. God her life is a mess. Makes me feel great about mine though. :grin:
And I am watching Deadlist Catch...I love that show.

Dr. Evil

:does a dance:

Got my results...cancer free!!! WHOOP!!

Now I just have to see the specialist (because they are special) and determine the next step!! Surgery or not to surgery.

had my biopsy

And it was one of the worst experiences I have ever had. It hurt soo much even after they supposedly numbed me. Course getting four HUGE needles stuck into your throat so they can take samples of your thyroid is just not fun.

I feel a bit better today, not as sore but it still hurts like a son of a bitch to move my neck.


I should have my results by Friday when I see the Specialist. Hopefully it will be good news.